There is such a world called infertility, and it is a world of hope, faith, loneliness, tears, worry, and sometimes, beautiful moments. It is a world where you change and put everything on hold. For those of you who are going through it, I applaud you as it is not for everyone, though unexpected as it does come. Many think that infertility is always the woman, when in fact it is 30% female factor, 30% male factor, or 30% both or unknown. I never thought I would know as much as I do about the other side of having children, nor where all the conversations and tangents thereof will lead you to in such new territory. It is an unexplored world unless you have been through ART, Assisted Reproductive Technologies. My hope is that one day there will be more awareness in infertility, so women and couples don’t have to feel what they feel by themselves. I was lucky my cycles were filled with friends. But even with that said, there is a battle you have to face yourself where no one but you can defeat it. Call it faith, or a feeling, or something spiritual in nature. For me, with our last in-vitro cycle, I won this battle through the beauty and life in the trees and the moon and the sky. I just needed a little bit of stardust to begin a new life.
Reminiscent of my all time favorite Lomo camera.
(shot with the hood)
Before every project, I go through a long phase of concepting and sketching ideas and lighting diagrams. Here’s a look at part of my workflow.
I just got back from the beautiful country of Costa Rica, and it reminded me of the simple life. A life where you have what you need, days are long, and the mental pace is thoughtful and relaxed. We stayed in two places, Santa Teresa and Arenal. Santa Teresa is a surf town on the Pacific Ocean with gravel, dusty roads, no traffic lights, incredible sunsets, and a coastline without any high rises. When you are on the beach, you see the natural beauty of the area because any hotels are tucked back into the trees (gotta love trees on a beach). The hotel we stayed at, Playa Cielo, only had 4 villas and a laid-back restaurant on the sand. I finally got back on a surf board, and I cannot wait to go back. One day, we surfed into the sunset…and there’s nothing I enjoy more than being in water during sunset, whether it’s the lake, beach, pool. The water gets super silky…
Arenal is inland and is famous for its magnificent volcano. Although volcanic activity appears to be decreasing and explosions have become rare, Arenal Volcano is one of the ten most active volcanoes in the world. We stayed at a sustainable eco lodge, Rancho Margot, certified with a negative carbon footprint. They serve food from the garden, generate electricity, create biogas for cooking food, make soap from used cooking oil, and the hot water is produced by packing compost around coils filled with stream water. Our friends from LA, whom we met in Los Cabos, are what brought us to Costa Rica. They had a beautiful wedding at the ranch, wholly in tune with all of the elements of the earth, and we are grateful for all the new friends we now have.
time is like a new leaf on your favorite plant. it’s one of those things that surprises you and all of a sudden it’s grown. once in a while I think we all have our moments of complete shock with time. 10 years go by and you wonder where the time was spent. then you go back and think about each year and can’t seem to remember what you did that year. for me these moments of shock surface during birthdays or when someone moves away or just an endearing moment with a good friend. and when you measure friendships with time, it’s quite remarkable. my friendships go back 13, 17, 23 years – just about all of my friends. i truly have best friends.
time and living it is why I became a photographer.. to never forget all of life’s moments, and it’s been an honor to create moment-driven work for so many clients.
A polaroid for iPhone photos. Here’s the link for more info: http://www.the-impossible-project.com/projects/camera/iil
13 years ago I graduated from the University of Georgia’s BFA photography program. I printed my exit show in the darkroom on black and white paper and mounted them on custom metal frames. I have to note that I am an incredible darkroom printer! Long gone are the darkroom days, but what useful tools do we have now in the digital workflow. Only a few of these images below were hung at my show; I’ll have to dig up the photos on *slides* sometime.
Today’s post is in memory of Randy Pausch, who has inspired and keeps inspiring so many people with “The Last Lecture”. Quoted from the Wikipedia, “This talk was modeled after an ongoing series of lectures where top academics are asked to think deeply about what matters to them, and then give a hypothetical “final talk,” i.e., “what wisdom would you try to impart to the world if you knew it was your last chance?” Doctors told Randy he would have three to six months to live. He gave this lecture about a month after he was told this.
I have come to think of all the things that we as a human race get hung up on. When what you should do is remember that life’s too short. Life’s too short to worry about the little things, whether it be who said what, an email you’ve sent, regrets. Life should be spent as much as you can with or about the things you hold dear. What will you leave behind? In our lives of chaos, I believe that with this comes time management. And after researching Randy Pausch, I discovered a great lecture he gave about time management that is worth watching twice. Watch it by clicking here.
In short, Randy Pausch was a remarkable man with courage most of us can’t even think of. He has moved me with his dedication to life and to his family. His story is heartwarming and his legacy will continue to inspire mankind, and most importantly to him, his children.
So fill in the blank, life’s too short to…
For the past 12 weeks I worked on a digital brand campaign for the American Cancer Society, with the focus on the refresh of cancer.org. It has been a humbling project to work on, and I am privileged to be a large part of it. Many thanks are in order to everyone who worked on this project and all the talent we met and interviewed for inspiration. More to come. For now, here’s some fun at work. **Update: To see behind the scenes to the shoot, click here.
I photographed a blind woman the other day. Her spirit and independence took my breath away. I am so happy to have met her. After the shoot, all I could think about was how opposite her and I were, but only in seeing I’m sure. Here I am in a world where seeing things is my life, and here she was where all she saw was complete darkness. People say that you can see someone’s soul through their eyes…the eyes are “the window to the soul.” My subject’s eyes were shut, but I could feel her soul from a mile away, and every emotion I asked her to convey and think about came across her face so beautifully and easily. So I may have to argue that the eyes are not the window to the soul; yet it is one’s mystifying aura.